Friday, October 23, 2015

The art in me seems to ooze out to others

     So I have been painting and teaching classes for a popular craft store in Camarillo, CA.  The piece shown here was a free painting class I held recently for a free class night, unaware I had stepped so far out of the box (corporate world) by doing this painting, it was still an amazing night of color and exploration.
     Four women, one collective thought, paint something beautiful and explore the soul of art all in two hours; the posted picture here is mine. I am so in love with art.
     I started the night trying desperately to get past a lingering emotion, one I have been drifting back and forth with allowing time to temper the feeling, one day this feeling will go away. When my evening was over, I had this beautiful painting, a much better mood and knew I had found my happy place.  Then I returned for the second evening -  free drawing class, the same four women returned, however one came bearing a gift.
     She was my newest student and had left the night before, inspired from the free painting class. Her time with me filled her head with words and she explained she was a poet.  She said she was compelled to write her poem all down and add it to my painting, then wrapped it all in a frame and presented it to me hat night.  I was blown away.  Took everything out of me to not burst into tears while reading the beautiful words she wrote to the other three woman in the class.  I am still warmed by her kindness and thoughts.
     So I have done my job I guess. I love this painting, it is filled with much goodness and now has a beautiful poem as part of its soul. While it is not an original thought is is an interpretation of another's work filled with beautiful colors and tranquil moments to gaze upon.
     So here are the other ladies paintings and the poem. Enjoy.

Peace and love always.

Saturday, September 5, 2015

What if you weren't living the life you imagined when you were 20?

As I sit here on Labor Day weekend, pondering as I usually do everyday, cleaning up emails, my life and much more, I came across this feeling of not being the "special snowflake" I imagined I should have been by now or as viewed from the eyes of a much younger person, back in the day. I remember fear struck in me when in Junior College, attending an art history class, as I learned about Grandma Moses, who achieved her fame in her late 70's I believe.  My first thought as a young 20 year old, was never wanting this to happen to me.  I desired reaching my goals far earlier in life. However, so far, looks like Grandma Moses has a stronger hold on my achievements than previously wanted by me, for me.

From that moment to now, I have been humbled by a karmic history I still have yet to understand, one that bites at my heels like a junk yard dog, injuring my journey, slowing down the momentum. In reflecting daily on the feeling I might not understand the whys of my karma, nor be able to correct this karma, even though I try very hard everyday to do just that, it does not feel like it is working yet. This karma, is mine to own and is baffling, however I am learning the value of old words with less satisfactory solutions, i.e. the repeating of the word, acceptance.  Saying the word "acceptance", and doing daily mantras to fixing my ills, my life struggles with my artistry are quite revealing, albeit difficult for me to live within the narrow boundaries my box provides. Given the less than expansive domain of my personally designed creative box of fun, this too affects how well I understand my karmic life. But I try, for I am tenacious, I also have a never give up type of personality and seem to continually find ways to move my life along. I straighten my shoulders, comply with how the world is different from what I remember it looked like when I was 20 and go forward, with hope, always hope, just like Pandora and her box of curiosity.

So, if you are inclined, follow me, like me, support me, champion me, or better yet, hire me.  Of what life is left in front of me, a personality test I took last night, thinks I am 38 years old, where I prefer to stay locked in at 23 years old, my personal favorite age to be. Both ages are far below where I am now chronologically, I still push forward with my life and its changes, happy trails to us all.

Saturday, August 22, 2015

A View From A Plane Window

So the story continues, through challenges to my psyche, to survive the 8-4 job, stay employed and then channel everything into a painting.  Painted directly from paint tube to canvas, this came out of my world this week.  From an image I saw on my cache of images I have taken I extrapolated it into this "View From A Plane Window" there is a small city below.

This piece is an original concept, Not from a warm up exercise I am doing to train my thoughts on how to use acrylics wisely, in two hours and be done. Those are the replications of great artists, individuals I feel have reached that goal or at least an interpretation (like my stuff so far).  And when asked, yes it is for sale, so ask me.

Tuesday, August 18, 2015


This was a warm up exercise painted from another's art found on the internet
Click the link to be in a class I teach in Acrylic Paints and go home with a picture in 2 hours!

Painting these 9" x 12" canvases to attract students to the Michael's Stores Classes I teach - here are the remaining dates in August: 19th, 24th, 26th & 31st, (5-7 PM)!

So we can this or something else....see you at Michael's in Camarillo, CA!!!

Saturday, May 2, 2015

'Til Death Do Us Part

Love is a very powerful emotion and it is a focus of our lives, she thought walking the dog in the middle of the lonely evening.  The mild yet constant wind cooled her tears like rivers of feelings traveling down her face.  She thought about the TV show which just concluded and preceded her walk with dog.  How wrong the writers were about reality, how terrible an episode it was to watch this tragic portrayal of life. She, with dog cuddled beside her, watched the show, which filled her head with so many thoughts, life isn't like this, however her thoughts still, did not shake the notion "You are better than this Shonda Rhimes, you could have been so much better."

As with the power of love, there is death, another gift of life, and inevitable to us all, her mind continued.  She herself had loved deeply, lost people she held dearly and those who were so close to her, more than once in her life.  As expected, her mind drifted immediately to thoughts of her friend. The one who recently had lost a forever love and she hoped her friend hadn't seen this load of crap of a show. No matter how well one prepares, that depth of love, followed by grief, is never forgiving to those who are left behind, because most, almost all, don't have the luxury of disappearing for a year or more. Grief from the loss of a love was the theme for the episode, and brought back her own personal grief. Having been there, and having done that, those feelings are endless, she thought, constant reminders which swell the heart with knowledge, if I live long enough I will have to endure the feeling of loss again.  Not fair, not fair, not fair.

Dog pulled at his leash and the evening walk continued. It was so beautifully quiet.  She was mindful of the hour knowing only the wicked take to the streets during this hour.  As always, while she loved the quite solitudes, she was fully aware of the dangers the hour paraded in front of her peacefulness. She remembered this challenging feeling, while dog and her were alone and outside. The hum from the nearby freeway was the only reminder of life traveling the road out there, otherwise most were asleep.

The death of a person remains with the living as torn apart memories jogged back into life through the eyes of an episodic TV show writer. She did not like the show, nor the episode before which detailed the death of the character the previous week.  Too many plot malfunctions, very unlike real life, very disappointing from the well known show creator.

Real life is not so kind. Real life forced her to face her losses with tiny, microscopic steps, still appearing before her today, right in front of her, reminding her life has an end. Love has an end. Grief has no end, it is evermore for the living. It is the plot twist that comes in so many real ways and is always a shock regardless knowing it is due to us all. It is a reality she ran from hoping against all odds it could be avoided even though she knew she can't.  The gift of life is a time ticket to death, filled with the sickening sweet element of surprise, now you see her now you don't. Time travel with grief is slow at first, a solitude tantamount to living in a place where fog is a constant weather pattern, broken up only from interruptions of reality requiring one's attention. And yet she drifted into thoughts about hope and those of the living.  

Hope is an endless source of breath for the living, just like in Pandora's box.  After all the hurtful emotions race past Pandora, biting and tearing her flesh, there lies hope, glowing with sunshine, love, warm, soft and tender emotions.  Waiting to be held, to be brought back close to the heart, to mend the heart, to remind her there is meaning in death, the feeling of goodness will come from all of this, however she knew it really doesn't.  Death is death.  Life ends, taking with it every chance to share that next wonderful moment of life. To drift forward alone and without. Watching new life emerge, growing up never knowing those who traveled before these new lives begin, because a death of a person eventually goes unnoticed, a history without impact worthy of history books. A life will fade unless someone shouts they existed, and she shouted, "I exist, I am worthy, he was worthy." 

A light in a window turned on. She forgot the hour was late and her shouting woke up a sleeper. Dog jumped at her voice, tugging at the leash and she turned back to go home. "Yeah Shonda, I get what you wanted to impart to your viewers, but it could of been better, so much better than what you wrote."

Dog bounced up the stairs, waiting half way for her to disconnect the leash and then racing up to the top, smiling back down at her when he reached the landing.  Her slow climb to reach the door was a quiet game they played after every walk.  Dog loved her so and she him. Together they were a happy team of time travelers, living out a story for all to see another day.

Monday, June 2, 2014

Temptation: oh lead me to my happy place

Growing up i remember The Temptations, a musical group who rode the wave of good times and good vibrations.

Today's world has more temptations than we know how to process the temptations presented.  I find the things that are tempestuous to me is still art, beautiful art.  I drew this piece from a live setting, a very tempting type of drawing experience for me as there is a time clock on how long the model can stay posed for the artist.

I look forward to the day when I can draw again freely from live models as one can see from this drawing, is art tempting me back to the beauty of live sittings and the results of 20 minute art.

Sunday, March 9, 2014


You know when you are hit with a spark of something, a shock goes through your system unlike
anything you have felt prior to this exact moment.  It is a different feeling, one which compels you to pay attention like never before.  Hopefully you do, hopefully you don't let the current action seekers, who hover all around you, draw your attention away from the spark.  Because if they do, they have drawn you away from this very important spark moment, you being changed forever.  Perhaps this spark will get you involved in a new memory instead, because you can't step toward or into the spark, it happens - sparks are not always well timed.  Whether you act on the spark or not, ackowledging the moment of a spark hitting you, well, this feeling should never leave you, sparks are quite unique.

This happens a lot when love is in the air.  As when you walk into a crowded room and have a spark of love hit you in the head when your eyes meet.  Yes, I have learned this spark is about a person of importance, however in my life it was really past loves encountering each other in this lifetime; they never became anything - just saying.

Unlike ignoring the spark-jolt to the emotions, sometimes a spark will ignite another moment, as in lighting a fire, and in this case it is to light the fire place and warm the soul as you gaze at the burning flames. Fire is the result of a spark, so sparks can also be dangerous.  Handle with caution, regardless of the flames, real or metaphorically speaking, a spark is best handled with caution.

So, as I drift into my Sunday to find or make sparks jump to the front cortex of my brain, I leave you with this weeks' sampling of "Spark", Illustration Friday's word of the week.  Let the sparks begin!